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clasingla
I’m surviving have to write all my college essays today I’m very demotivated as the requirements to try to get into the music program are overwhelming and feel unrelated to the field I want to go into I feel i should probably get tested for clinical depression but things are looking up elsewhere I’m starting an in person daggerheart group so that is a little good
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Hades0918
Hey at least there's a bright side! I hope you nail those essays! And the Daggerheart better work out!
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UnovanZorua
That's great about the daggerheart thing! I wish you luck with college. That sounds tough.
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I want to be done
Everything hurts
I can't focus
Nothing is painful
All sounds are louder
My thoughts echo endlessly through my mind
I am struggling to comprehend the most simple things
It literally feels like I'm dying
I just want a break from my life
No college
No family
No stress
Just let me free
Allow me to FINALLY breath again
Relieve me of the pressures life dropped onto me
I just want to feel happy
Actually enjoy my free time
Not feel the constant presence of school
I DON'T EVEN WANT MY ASSOCUATES ANYMORE!!!
I'll have it in spring of next year but I can feel myself crumbling
I'm so smart yet my brain is dead
I hate this
I hate everything
It all hurts
It's painful
Just let me out
Early college was always so cool
But it has drained me
I feel empty and tired
I don't want to continue
No more Bachelor's
No more Master's
Whatever else is after I don't care
I just want to feel like I'm living again
0October 5-
Hades0918
Smiles weakly as I shake my head no (BTW, Nothing is painful is me saying nothing=painful, not that I can't feel pain)
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Hades0918
College is exhausting me and I don't want to do it. My brain literally feels dead. But I also need a good future. I Just feel myself collapsing as I try to force my way through it...
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Voltareon2012
If you ever have the time or chance to…
just rest. Just don't do anything.
THAT INCLUDES COMING HERE MISTER >:3
Rest and don't think about anything, whenever you have the chance.
If you don't seem to have the chance…
Try whatever you can to make one.
Your mental health is just as important as grades. Scratch that, more important. -
Hades0918
You say don't come here yet here and Fortelling are the only two places that bring me joy so why would I not come?
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clasingla
I know exactly how you feel I’ve felt the pressure the world crumbling on every thought expectation holding you hostage everyday you just feel like a corpse getting up knowing you just have to trudge through another day that thought of your whole life being put on a pedestal and you have to live up to that pedestal even if ripping you inside out
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Hades0918
Yes exactly right, @clasingla. But my mom doesn't realize that she's put me on it. But at this point I have to live up to certain expectations and I genuinely don't want to. But now it's too late and there is no escape so I have to push through...
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Morpekofreako
I’m sorry.. I want to say something… but I think this is all I can. And I sorta ageee with volts. You don’t have to stop, but if so much pressure is building up inside your brain, I’d say lay off from using it too much. I mean of course thinking is important but I think you know what I mean. The internet is great but our world is better. If stupid grades are getting in the way of mental health then let your mind relax, and tell school to frick off for a bit >:3 Hope this eases up for you soon.
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Hades0918
I love that energy! But school is my problem not here. And the biggest issue is all my mid-terms are 9 days away and I'm scared I won't make it because I thought I was closer to done than I was and honestly I should have been but my brain is being slow because I can't focus on the info and it's not this place's fault but because my brain is overworked in general and just feels dead and I just wish school would go away but alas I'm stuck with it. But I can't go from this place. My visits here are what makes life manageable and less stressful
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sir_uledge
Yikes.. I'm not in college, but I do somewhat understand where you're coming from. I also agree with what Voltareon and Morpekofreako said - it's ok to take a break. Remember that everything is temporary. Your midterms are in 9 days. So, with this in mind, take it one day, one hour, heck, even one minute, at a time. One saying I've always liked is that "the little things paint the big picture." College is NOT permanent. I'm not saying that to downgrade your situation - because I fully understand you. But look - 9 days, then you can calm down on the studying a bit. Remember, once that deadline is passed - it's over. You've made it this far. And, what have I seen from the short time I've known y'all? You are a very strong person Hades, and please, never forget that. Like I said a few lines ago, one moment at a time, and you'll get it done. Nobody can promise you life is gonna get better, but no one can promise it's gonna get worse either. I remember we talked a bit before, and I think we can both relate to each other a bit. And I can tell you right now, you're doing great.
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Voltareon2012
Bring you joy? Maybe.
Sometimes your mental health comes before feeling joy!
SO SLEEP.
I hate to hear it myself but please listen.
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Hades0918
The maybe is wild because I'm being completely honest. This is the only escape I have to get just a bit of fresh air. Anyways, I'm fine. I literally do this every semester
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BSDuck
I rlly want to give advice… but I suck at therapy. All I can say is… I hope you make it through.
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Hades0918
You don't need to say anything! Honestly... I just feels good knowing you're there. I don't know. I feel so dumb sharing my life problems... But at the same time when I do, and someone supports me, even just one person, I feel like I can breathe a bit better. But I also don't want people to be worried or concerned about me so I feel guilty that I told them. It's very conflicting. Long story short, I appreciate that and you don't need to say anything
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Dragonfly102024 earned the 2,500 Agrees badge.You received 2,500 Agrees. People really notice you, in case you haven't noticed.October 6
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Dragonfly102024
Thank you! And thank you everyone who ever gave me an agree ☺️. I feel honored to be one of a handful who also have earned this badge:
Congratulations to those who came before me as well!
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Welcome to the Pokemon forums, @Dragonfly102024! I hope you like it here! I think you’ll like @Hades0918 and @Ember2026 fpr some reason. Anyway, glad you’ve joined us!
0October 5-
Hades0918
@PokeMom244 is another person the new user would like! Anyways, really nice to meet you @Dragonfly102024! I think I'll call you D! You seem really cool and fun and I can't wait to learn more about you!
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PokeMom244
Oh yes @Hades0918 is really nice!
I hope u like it here @Dragonfly102024!!
This place is really fun!
You'll begin wondering why u didn't join sooner! -
Hades0918
If she joined in December she would have been here in time to be part of Team Dragon Flame!
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Dragonfly102024
Thanks? For the tremendously late welcome. Actually, only @Hades0918 read my wall way back then. I asked if anyone ever looks here. And then @Thur55555555555 said hi too.
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Hades0918
Yup! Christmas time you were telling everyone to share the joy by sharing in Pocket! I liked the little updates! Wait... I mean, I would have if you were here! BUT YOU JUST JOINED TODAY!!!
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Morpekofreako
I think… it’s either a poem or a song, @Voltareon2012
That he is coming up with. Fun fun!
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The night is so quiet…
When you're talking to someone it feels more intimate
When you're alone it feels violently deafening
Everything seems louder
All your senses are much more active
And you notice the little things you hadn't before
Just odd
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Mod_MrsSparkle earned the 25 LOLs badge.You received 25 LOLs. You're posting some good content. Great!October 6
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🎉🥳🎉 I did it again!! 🎉🥳🎉
YUP! I made Master Rank again thus keeping my streak alive!
Hmmmmm now to grind to Legends.... That's going to be tough.
0October 4-
Dragonfly102024
Wellll I was restarted season 40 (this season) as an Ultra, also fighting against others who were masters and I found last season if I don't put it off and grind rank as much as possible from the beginning, within reason of course, then ranking up from Ultra to Masters is doable within the first four days. I just participated in some epic battles, some lost some won but… totally fun. Mostly. A couple of nad moments but came out on top. I mained as Blastoise, Articuno and Goodra. 😎
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hey u, yeh u.
Have u drank any water? if not, Go drink some
Eaten anything? If not. Go eat something
Slept enough? Again if not go take a nap0October 4-
Hades0918
DRINK SOME WATER OR GET HIT WITH HEAT WAVE!!! (Btw, I noticed this last night, you're in the Activity Section again!)
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Cassanri is cannon
I said so
Mion said so
You now believe so
You don't know what that is?
I'LL TELL YA!!!
Later
I don't feel like it right now
0October 4-
Voltareon2012
Whose name in PLZA has a double 's'?
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…I literally got nothing.
I'm exploiting that Ritz knows and asking her
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Somebody make sense out of why I've been listening to the Mariokart Rainbow Road themes on loop while making random courses in some PolyTrack game
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Dragonfly102024
A deep rumbling sound shakes the ground as I rumble my displeasure and irritation for all to hear/feel. Will this be the straw that ignites the Dragonite?
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GOOODMORNING (or what ever it is for you) I have risen from the dead and decided to see what the mortals are doing today so tell me humans what are you doing on this specific day
0October 5-
Hades0918
IT'S THE GREAT DIVINE… I can't remember your irl nickname so KIK!!! I, a simple mortal, am honored by your fabulous presence! I have only school today with fun chats with friends on my breaks. And what do you, such a powerful being, have planned for today?
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Smellykiki
Today on this special day I feel like teasing my just woken up 3 year old brother till he cries (evil me)
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A vase made of intricate eloquence
A spectacle to all one to cure the lament
Appraised as a beauty yet one would never expect
The slow eroding to the vases detriment
yet no one seem to noticed causing the detriment to quicken
Well who could notice someone’s internals being stricken
each day people pass and go with their attitude so ferryweather
No thought to the craft behind this vase only seeing for their pleasure
One night the vase finally shattered
No one came to the crime for they didn’t really care
Now your just a shattered vase ugly and full of despair
To live a life only being seen from the outside
And when it’s gone you become as zeros divide
Now your just shards of glass the epitome of trash
To be scooped up thrown away no legacy to last
0October 4-
Hades0918
Wow. Wow this was just… Perfect. Exactly how society views people. But I'm concerned. I really want to make sure things are okay. I can't force you to open up. But just know I'm here for you if you ever choose to. Amazing poem and have a great day/night.
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clasingla
just that I have no friends at school and when I get home I have no one their to me and my siblings rarely talk and my parents fail to understand me trying to push me to be perfect even though that’s the very thing that’s killing me I’ve also been struggling a lot mentally thinking the world will just keep on moving if I stopped existing that if I am gone tommorow no one would shed a tear because who could like a failure like me reality murders my dreams one by one with each blow leaving me with nothing all hope gone that niave enthusiasm dead because I’ll never be good enough because I lack skill and when I try my best it’s still worse than everyone else and I’m scared for my future if I can’t do anything now how can I even hope of having a good future my old friend group faded out since some of them went to college so I have no one to hang out with the people in my church group are the popular kids so fake with every thing they do leaving me just an outcast an outsider and with no one to talk to and I tried to be friendly and start a blood on the clocktower group and I got around 20 people to say they would join to only be betrayed with only a couple few to come each time which meant I had to cancel it multiple times eventually having to end it cause no one showed up
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Hades0918
Um... okay. I can't be there irl, but I'm definitely here for you on the internet. Because I do care about you. And you're worried about being perfect. I know it probably doesn't mean much from me, but I don't think you need to be perfect. Just be you. Like, if the real you is anything like the guy I know then you're a really cool dude. You have a natural skill at writing and your stories are incredible. You have such amazing ideas and make awesome characters. I wish I could do something about botc... I personally want to join. I Wonder why they would say yes if they didn't mean it though... I'm sorry that didn't work out. You know, being the outcast isn't a bad thing. You're staying true to yourself, not changing to please others. That's a really good thing that I think will get you far in life. You live by your standards and won't lower yourself for others. People will see and respect that,even if it's not right now. If only you could stop trying to live by higher standards... I don't know if anything I said was meaningful but I'm just trying to show I'm here and making effort to help and comfort you. If there's absolutely anything else I'm all ears
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Mod_Starlight earned the Name Dropper badge.Mentioning someone in a discussion (like this: @Name) is a great way to encourage dialog and let them know who you’re talking to.October 5
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Mod_Starlight earned the First Comment badge.Commenting is the best way to get involved. Jump in the fray!October 5
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Mod_Netirene a gagné le badge Mentions .Mentioning someone in a discussion (like this: @Name) is a great way to encourage dialog and let them know who you’re talking to.October 5
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Hades0918
iN MY OPINION IT SHOULD BE. i DON'T (sorry cap locks) get why society looks down on expressing your emotions. Let me cry! Let you cry! Everyone deserves to cry when they need it! Life is tough. We are all dealing with something. So don't judge someone else for letting out their stress. Holding it in only makes things harder
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clasingla
yea i just really felt this a few days back i kind of was having a rough day and i just wanted to cry but i just couldn’t
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Hades0918
I get that… I hope things get better and maybe you can finally let out some tears. It feels amazing when that pressure is finally gone and you can breath again
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sir_uledge earned the 250 LOLs badge.You received 250 LOLs. Looks like you're popular around these parts.October 4
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If my wifi connection was better, I'd be grinding ranked right now. Too much lag. 😐
Oh, and I'm grumbly today... That's just an fyi heads up.
Yep.
Have a good one.
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Dragonfly102024
I'm ok now. I think. I'll spill the beans someday. Thanks @Hades0918. It means a lot to know you're here ready to listen.
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sir_uledge
Welp if you're open for casuals I'll tag along. Also if you ever wanna talk I'm here too.
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Dragonfly102024
Thank you! Yeah I ended up ingame. Unfortunately, @sir_uledge you came right as I needed to leave. I'm sorry. Play around reset?
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sir_uledge
I joined y'all around reset yesterday and I had fun! Sorry I only had time for one round tho.. chores grumble
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Ritz has already offered to help me bite ankles
Your friend is now also my friend >:30October 2-
Hades0918
Wait until Mion gets here. Her signature is biting and punching and shanking at the most random of times… And yeah Ritz is awesome. Just remember she's already taken (lol)
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PokeMom244
I'M GONNA BE BL**DING!
Noooooooooooooo (lols, I honestly cant wait till she gets here)
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Dragonfly102024
@PokeMom244 , I got your back! Big ol' Dragonite will be here to defend you!!! Huh. I strangely feel like KOing salty people in ranked right now.....
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sir_uledge
I have a full 40 oz water bottle😉 Bite my ankles and my Takeya will be biting you🫠 Take that as you wish
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Voltareon2012
Should I be questioning whether its good or bad that one of the people Hades hyped as one of their best friends is also one of my favorite people on the forums now???
I feel minor guilt :P
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Oh um.. so while you were offline there was a little situation where someone was trying to copy your Random User Appreciation Day idea, so try not to be confused if you see a second "Random User Appreciation Day #6" from another user. Either way the situation's already been dealt with, but I figured I'd let you know.
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UGH I JUST NOTICED THAT UR THE NUMBER 1 ON THE LEADERBOARD THING WOOOOAAAA (I totes not found it for the first time today….)
0October 4-
Lonestar85
He will be #1 on perpetuity. No one is going to catch him. If he went offline for 10 years I'd still be below him in post count.
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PokeMom244
i might need to sleep..
I did wake up at like.. 7:30 am… And I went to bed at like 2:30 am…
I'm just tired.. I wanna sleep.. but I don't want to at the same time…
Its for the weak…
I should only sleep when I'm supposed too if you know what I mean lol.
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RitattakDiva
I relate to that sm cries in compassion and understanding and also cuz the approval thing is killing meh
I WILL CALL HADES AND TELL HIM TO HYPNOTISE YOU !
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PokeMom244
(Yeah.. Approval.. I hope it goes away for u soon!)
AYYY NOO!
How dare u…
I DON'T NEED HIM TO HYPNOTIZE ME…
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RitattakDiva
(I hope too....)
I DO DARE ! I DARE CUZ I CARE ! (rhymes so it's true !) @Hades0918 WHEN ULL BE HERE BRING THE HYPNOTISING STUFF
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PokeMom244
(GREAT RHYME!)
NOOOO!!!
NO @Hades0918 DONT LISTEN TO HER I NEED NO "Hypnotizing stuff"!!!!! -
RitattakDiva
Speaking of Hades idk where he's been.... (Speaking of or talking about ? My brain isn't Englishing as it should)
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RitattakDiva
Idk what time it is for you, but SLEEP SLEEP SLEEPY SLEEP DORS ENDORS TOI BY THE POWER OF MOON AND SLEEPIN PILLS ritual dance as if I were summoning a demon
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PokeMom244
HOW DAR-
No stop…
I DONT wanna—
Sleep…
No…
How.. Dare.. u…
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PokeMom244
GASP
Throws the blanket on your head as I get attacked by pillows from u, Then throwing them BACK AT U!!! -
PokeMom244
(Okkk I'm seriously wondering were Hades is… Like this is so abnormal for him not to be on..)
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PokeMom244
(Ha we posted at the same time lol)
YEH I AM TOO. HE ISNT RESPONDING ON FORTELLING… I haven't really tried anything else… BUT STILL…. THIS IS WEIRD.. -
RitattakDiva
I relate to that sm cries in compassion and understanding
I WILL CALL HADES AND TELL HIM TO HYPNOTISE YOU !
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