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Hey... You can take a break... But please don't isolate yourself. It's seriously not healthy. I will always listen, no matter how dark or "pointless". I care and I'm here. Please. You do need you time but don't let yourself be captured by dangerous thoughts. Kay? Have a good rest. And I'm giving you some good things others write about their mental health. Finding people that share similar emotions can be helpful. Um... I... Okay. Bye. I'm here. 🧡❤️🧡

NNOOOOOOO!!! The writing I was gonna give you isn't there anymore! Sigh Listen, Fortelling has a lot of depressed people. It's also a great way to anonymously express yourself. Very supportive community that has helped me through so much of my depression. Just... Give some of them a read, yeah?

I don't have much to say, but I hope it gets better for you. And everything Hades said is true, but I want to focus on the isolation thing. It can, indeed, make things worse and accidentally give you negative associations with what you're avoiding or make you feel like it'd make it worse, which isn't good in the long-term. However, that doesn't mean you need to check every post and notification and wall. Instead, I just recommend using the forums to a limited degree (e.g. commenting very rarely or not at all, avoiding threads that are long or got too many new comments, not reading anything that might tire you too much, only clicking posts that interest you, etc.), which can give you a sense of progress (letting you see just HOW much energy you have and what your limits are, and if the progress is negative, don't worry. That's normal sometimes) and it doesn't leave you all alone or make you associate the place with worsening those negative emotions.

UZ is right. But I came here with a reason. Listen... Cal… Ugh I'm about to share a lot. Possibly over share. Delete if you want. Sorry if I overstep any internet line. But I care about you. A lot. I... I can't let you go without telling you that. I genuinely consider you a good friend. I know I know almost nothing about you irl but you seriously mean a lot to me. You were one of the first people here that I felt comfortable with. You seriously helped me find my place and confidence. And you are so cool and creative and talented. I admire you. You are seriously so incredible. And I'm sorry. I... I feel like I failed you. I should have done more. Been there more. In my time of need you were there for me. I don't mention it much here but trust me I talk about it to everyone else I know. Seriously, you listening to me despite not having to meant so much to me. But yet in your time of need I didn't make enough effort to keep in touch with you. I was afraid of over stepping some line. But I can't let you go without me saying everything on my mind. I always get so excited when I see a notification from you. I enjoy when you're around. You have awesome ideas and when it's something like rp you are the best of the best. And your story creations... You have some of the greatest, most original ideas out there. No one could ever replace you and barely anyone can complete. I don't want to let you isolate yourself. I know where the thoughts go when you're alone. I can't say such a thing here in a kid's place but I don't want you leaving more than just the Forums. You are cared about. You mean something. I may not have things as bad as you do. Yours is way worse. But I can to an extent relate with you. And even the things I haven't experienced I can understand and listen to. I'm not forcing you to stick around or talk to me. But you are genuinely one of my favorite people to be around and I don't want you hurting yourself. I'm not saying you have to stay active or force yourself to do something you don't want to. I really like UZ's idea but I can't force you into that either. I just... I want to remind you that you're not alone. And that you have someone there for you. That cares about you. Again, I know that I don't actually know you. I've never even seen your face. But you mean a lot to me and I don't want you to feel unwanted. So... Yeah. I just poured my heart out. Sorry if I crossed any boundaries. But I couldn't let you leave without telling you all that. So... Bye

you aren’t alone in feeling negatively. focus on your own mental health, take as long as you need to heal.

hey, yeh what everyone said,
I hope things get better. I really do.
Um… i'm sorry you're going through this…
Bye, ur awesome.
Thank you for the fun daggerheart sessions. U are great at gm'ing
Yeh… um got a bit off topic there.
So.. Yeh.. Bye Clasingla

Taking a break is fine. I guess you won't see this if you're leaving for a while, but… just give your feeling some kind of outlet. I'd be a mess if my characters weren't a mess. I pray you'll do better.

I can give you company if you ever need

You know... I've found that hearing others' depression and talking to those in a similar place to me can be quite helpful... I doesn't fix everything but it relieves some stress. Would you like me to give you links to a few good rants? If I can figure out how to anyways

Yeah... I actually get that. I felt like for Osho I had so much I should have said but couldn't because I don't know him that well. So I'm just making it a goal to put more effort into the friendship!

I keep feeling this like I want to say more about them yet I don’t seem to know what to say

Hey! Just... using a random post here to check on you. How are things going? How do you feel? Anything to at least look forward to?

nothing to look forward too except an event at swig kind of feeling depressed with absolutely no motivation to do anything and just indifferent to everything

Wow... I kinda feel ya. I'm sure mine isn't as bad as what you're going through, though. Anything you wanna talk about?

not really just lacking motivation to do anything

Okay. Well if that changes let me know. I'm always down to listen.

I wish I could answer. I'm sorry you must go through what you do. Get treated as you do. I wish you had better. You definitely deserve better.

I agree with what Hades has said. Remember we care about you, OK?

I have my elder sister she's experienced similar treatment by them she's had selective mutism for years yet only when she was 16 she got diagnosed and got help she needed, yet my parents for the longest time ignored her struggle rubbing it off as just plain shyness instead of what it really was, when we fall behind they threaten we might be in a mental home like my uncle, they turn on their own words and promises if it benefits them even if they promise to try and be better, saying that we are just going to do something anyway then trying to lock it behind what they want you to do

I know you guys care about me this is probably one of the places I feel the most comfortable with, with people who actually care about me instead of my parents who only does so by lip and not by heart

Yeah, I do want to confirm that I care about you. You're definitely one of my favorite people here. I'm sorry for your sister… I hope that doesn't happen to you. And that's crazy to threaten your child like that… Gods, I hope things get better for you!

That's awful... I wish you luck.

I’m sorry. And again, we do care about you.

That's… a lot.
A family isn't perfect if people in it aren't happy.
It's such a strange way to try to show love. Like it's gone through too many filters to come out right.
I can't tell you I can relate to it, and I can't say I know what exactly to do…
…all I can really say is I'm sorry that's how your life's gone, and that even if you don't see them, somebody cares about you.
You'll be alright.

What are they?

I’ll be looking at their names soon I was at the ren faire all day

Ooh please do tell me more!

about the ren fair or games?

both!

well for the games the ones that I’ve played that I’ve been really liking are you are not bunny girl, it’s basically a turn based rpg that uses emotions as its main mechanic, the second reality room unspoken truth which is a visual novel which is really really good, then there is drunken rouge and the vampire of goodbyes which is a fun roguelike that has you manage your stats

I didn't expect that from the first one but that sounds cool, I've never been a visual novel fan but the name makes me consider it, and the roguelike sounds incredible! I'll look into them! What about the ren fair?

so during the ten fair I got 3 new dice sets, some cool jewelry, got cursed with this sickness called jaundice by a plague doctor and had to go on a quest for a key to cure myself, ate some really good pizza, had some ice cream too, also some licorice and some raspberry soda and some lemonade. I also tried making this Viking yarn thingy but failed miserably, I then saw a show of a person playing a harp and a cool string instrument I forgot the name of, there was also jousting where the knights were making jokes the whole time

That sounds amazing! Is it possible they were playing a Lyre? Anyways, that sounds like so much fun! I hope you had a good time!

it wasn’t a lyre it was one I never heard before they described it as the cousin of a cousin of the violin its back was curved in a certain way

Huh. Sounds cool!

Instrument a Lute by chance?

Sadly no

Um... I didn't see this but I don't think it's that deep... I promise you didn't do anything wrong. You were telling them the proper way. Nothing wrong with that. Plus, you usually let a lot of things sljde, so it's not one you're CONSTANTLY correcting people. You're honestly too chill some times. So don't stress. You're still cool and fun to be around. And between you and me you've always been one of my favorite people here. So long story short you've done nothing bad and all is okay

I'm not sure about the context as I haven't been reading the battle royale, but I don't think anyone cared. Everybody is mean once in a while. All you can do is acknowledge or learn from it if it was bad and move on.

it just felt I was to cocky and to harsh and it turns out I was wrong and I had no good reason to lash out I really hope I didn’t hurt their feelings

Everyone makes mistakes. That's fine. All you can do is remember what you did wrong.

I wish I could say more but I'm agreeing with UZ

It's ok. For the record it keeps me on my toes. I'm still a novice at this stuff with no rulebook or handbook to pull from if I need it. Besides Hamilton has survived 4 Death moves, two of which Crit, hence wiped his Stress out anyway along with refills of their HP. It's not just him though... You and Bob have survived Death as well to where I feel it's justified to say: "Why won't you die" in a Royale where everyone is supposed to die save for one 🤣😇 Was kind of hoping Bob would bite it there against the Dugtrio but they didn't because they got lucky on the death save. The odds of me getting a Nat20 on an attack to override a reaction Crit is nothing short of crazy though. I did give him a ton of perks for getting a Crit but they can't outdo the damage. Reason I was hoping to KO him is because he has an advantage over everyone else with that Bow of his. He can just Kite you all unless you go after him and slay him before he can slay you.

Why don't you?

If you wan to, then DO IT!!

I wish I could take that burden from you. Or at least part of it. I hope someone can lift it from you soon

Wow. Wow this was just… Perfect. Exactly how society views people. But I'm concerned. I really want to make sure things are okay. I can't force you to open up. But just know I'm here for you if you ever choose to. Amazing poem and have a great day/night.

just that I have no friends at school and when I get home I have no one their to me and my siblings rarely talk and my parents fail to understand me trying to push me to be perfect even though that’s the very thing that’s killing me I’ve also been struggling a lot mentally thinking the world will just keep on moving if I stopped existing that if I am gone tommorow no one would shed a tear because who could like a failure like me reality murders my dreams one by one with each blow leaving me with nothing all hope gone that niave enthusiasm dead because I’ll never be good enough because I lack skill and when I try my best it’s still worse than everyone else and I’m scared for my future if I can’t do anything now how can I even hope of having a good future my old friend group faded out since some of them went to college so I have no one to hang out with the people in my church group are the popular kids so fake with every thing they do leaving me just an outcast an outsider and with no one to talk to and I tried to be friendly and start a blood on the clocktower group and I got around 20 people to say they would join to only be betrayed with only a couple few to come each time which meant I had to cancel it multiple times eventually having to end it cause no one showed up

I can't help much, but I want you to know I care about you.

thanks i probably needed to hear that

Um... okay. I can't be there irl, but I'm definitely here for you on the internet. Because I do care about you. And you're worried about being perfect. I know it probably doesn't mean much from me, but I don't think you need to be perfect. Just be you. Like, if the real you is anything like the guy I know then you're a really cool dude. You have a natural skill at writing and your stories are incredible. You have such amazing ideas and make awesome characters. I wish I could do something about botc... I personally want to join. I Wonder why they would say yes if they didn't mean it though... I'm sorry that didn't work out. You know, being the outcast isn't a bad thing. You're staying true to yourself, not changing to please others. That's a really good thing that I think will get you far in life. You live by your standards and won't lower yourself for others. People will see and respect that,even if it's not right now. If only you could stop trying to live by higher standards... I don't know if anything I said was meaningful but I'm just trying to show I'm here and making effort to help and comfort you. If there's absolutely anything else I'm all ears

thanks I’ll let you know if anything more comes up

Sounds good. I hope you have a good day/night!

iN MY OPINION IT SHOULD BE. i DON'T (sorry cap locks) get why society looks down on expressing your emotions. Let me cry! Let you cry! Everyone deserves to cry when they need it! Life is tough. We are all dealing with something. So don't judge someone else for letting out their stress. Holding it in only makes things harder

yea i just really felt this a few days back i kind of was having a rough day and i just wanted to cry but i just couldn’t

I get that… I hope things get better and maybe you can finally let out some tears. It feels amazing when that pressure is finally gone and you can breath again

I have an essay to do for my Bible class…
But I'm
insert happy rainbow procrasinating!

Make since I procrastinate way to often

Ooh, have fun! Tell me how it goes!