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Tracks from Pokemon legends za have been added to Nintendo Music!! I’m so happy I’ve been wanting that for so long! Now I can listen to Jacinthe’s theme however much I want.
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Only food you get for the rest of your life
Which do you pick?
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Morpekofreako
maybe… I was trying to do school (in my room) and dad got angry that I was sitting on my bed. So I got in the floor and put my back against the wall so I could prop my back up. (No chairs in my room, and I wanted to be in my room.) But he got angry and said I was lazy and I was doing nothing blah blah blah. And then after some fighting I went outside and he followed me. He was yelling and being a jerk and I was just scared. Dad has grabbed my scars before several times so now I have trauma (I have damaged nerves so my scars don’t feel anything unless there is pressure or force and when there is it feels almost like having something dig into my skin, just like how I got them…). Leo, our golden retriever tried to protect me 🥺 he sat down next to my chair, in between me and dad and got into this semi-protective but very untrained stance lol but still didn’t leave my side. I don’t think dad noticed but I definitely did. I love Leo. But now dad has been flicking his fingers a bunch (a sound that messes with my sensitive hearing and also a sign of his frustration. I can’t help but be super aware of him!) and at church I was just worrying because I never know if he’ll be angry at me when I get home! What if he starts screaming at me? What if he grabs me? What if he adds to my trauma. He’s always said “life is gonna be SO hard for you when you grow up, nobody is gonna treat you the way I do!” But you treat me horribly! And my life ALREADY sucks! It’s gonna get BETTER when I leave. Also, that’s just a HORRIBLE outlook on life. “Ohhhh everybody sucks everybody’s stupid and rude and annoying! And judgy, too! Blah blah blah! I’m perfect though! Nothing wrong with me I’m just a child abuser!! :D” yeahh… sigh how about you?? You doin good?
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Hades0918
Oh wow… I'm sorry you have to deal with that. You truly don't deserve it. If you ever need to say more I'm here. Anyways, I've actually been pretty good lately. I've felt better today than I have in a while so I'm glad to see me improving!
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Hades0918
I'm here to check on you again. I think I may just do it every other day to avoid being too repetitive with it but if something ever comes up one day don't hesitate to reach out. So how are ya doing?
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Morpekofreako
pretty ok. I’m a little goofy today I think I’m tired lol I read subtitles that said “action music” as “fanfictions” also it took me like twenty minutes to start my math even though I literally had the book in my hands and my pencil on the page. Late last night I played a round of unite with D, and then started making professor’s notes for my Tiensi Pokemon. I only did Krankub and Bearllow but I had fun. I think maybe I’ll make a simple Tiensi map! How are you??
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Hades0918
I know you're tired but that sounds like a great night! I'm doing great! Me and Mion are making mafia bosses and I found an amazing song today. Just really good stuff today!
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K4MB4MYo morpeko, if you ever need to talk about that stuff you can come to me now. I know how dads can be…. Being in your teens lets you see a lot of experiences even if I’m younger than you. I know that it’s hard man, but if you go to church then you should just know that I’ll be praying for you ok. Hope to talk to you soon
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Morpekofreako
pretty good! I woke up earlier than usual. And later today, a new episode of a show about my FAVORITE BOOK SERIES is coming out!!!! How are you??
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Hades0918
Hey that's so cool! Today has been good! Attended a meeting about my future. Was better than I expected so yay!
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anybody want to be friends on Nintendo SWONTCH?
My friend code is:
SW-2770-7068-0906!!
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Hades0918
You can delete this if you want. I Just... I feel like I'm letting people down. @clasingla is leaving because of his depression. I've known how things have been for him. Been keeping up with the updates and tried to comfort him. But I rarely ever checked in on him. I didn't make active effort to see if things were getting better. I didn't ask him how I could help. He meant a lot to me. Might sound dumb since we only knew each other over the internet but it's true. And recently, when I was in need of a friend, he was there for me. And I couldn't return that? I Just... I failed him. I should have done so much better. And @UnovanZorua has this thing where they check in with me but I always forget to return the favor. Like... I care about almost everyone here. I genuinely do. But I get so caught up in my own life, which isn't really that bad, and I feel like I'm taking them for granted. Not expressing how much they mean to me enough. I'm seriously an awful friend. Even with you! I always forget to come in and check in to see how things are going and what is up in your life. What if you spiral and I don't even notice? What kind of friend am I? And I could make the excuse that I'm going through a rough time. I genuinely am. These last few months have sent me through a loop of amazing and buried 6 feet under in emotions. My mind is malfunctioning and I can't hold onto anything no matter how important it is. I Just... I'm not in a good place. But that's not a reason to neglect others. You guys deserve check ins too. And I never say how much y'all being there means to me. I feel like I'm taking you guys for granted. I'm failing y'all. I'm not that great of a friend. Why do people say I am? Just... That's all...
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aww it’s ok! I also forget to check up on you, and sometimes I DO feel like I’m being a tad selfish… but also, even if you do, you have to forgive yourself too. I understand, sometimes you have to face the truth. Maybe you could’ve been there more for cal. But you weren’t. But even so… I know this sounds super cliché, but everybody makes mistakes. You’ve already proved that you are a good person by admitting that you did. People think it’s a weakness to admit you were wrong, but truthfully it’s showing strength. And so is forgiving mistakes. From others and from yourself. And here’s something I like to say. “Don’t say ‘didn’t’ say ‘haven’t yet.’” You can still check in on UZ and me too and everybody you want. Maybe one day Cal will come back, and you can do that. You can put comments on his wall now, even. :’)
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Hades0918
Hmm... That's a really good point... For someone so young you are very wise. Thank you. So let me start by asking how things are going for ya?
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Voltareon2012Hades, can you just never say to yourself that you're a bad friend? Do you even realize that you don't have to check in with everyone? You're like Ragatha sometimes. You're just tying your worth to constantly making sure everyone's fine and when people drift away or you can't check in with them you beat yourself up over it. You do realize it's vice versa too, right? Relationships, whatever kind, are two-sided. It doesn't make sense for one person to try to do all the heavy lifting. You're trying to carry other's burdens and your own. You shouldn't just carry other's people's burdens, either. Both of you hold both of them, both the burdens. Suddenly, it isn't so heavy anymore.
Maybe if you'd done something different, Cal wouldn't have left. Maybe it would've been the same no matter what. But it doesn't matter now, the choice has been made. Don't focus on what you could've done. Focus on what you can do now. -
Morpekofreako
Thanks… but I’m not sure 😅 and I’m doing ok now. Dad had a lash out today so my day sucked but tonight it’s ok! How about you, my good friend??
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Hades0918
Wise words Volts. Well as long as you're okay, Morpeko, that's all that matters! I'm not sure how I'm doing. A lot of mixed emotions right now. But I'm alright I think.
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Hey!
Just wanted to say, over the last while, I've been praying for you during chances I get. It felt good to do so. I hope even if things don't seem to be changing much, it feels good to know I'm trying to help the best way I can when I'm way over here…024 October -
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My family’s dog Harley hates almost anybody new to her… except older people. Isn’t that strange?? She was fine when she met my grandma, which, I mean I guess is because she’s smelled her before many times. But whenever she met my uncle’s grandma who she’s probably only smelled a couple times ever, she was fine with her!! But whenever she met my aunt, she didn’t like her. I’m thinking maybe it’s because my aunt was scared of her. (I’ve been told she was attacked by a dog when she was young, and that is why we have to lock up the dogs at parties when my mom’s side comes over) maybe Harley picked up on fear and was also scared (she was… sorta abused as a pup [by my dad and my siblings and I, because we were younger and might I say idiotic. BUT my siblings and I did NOT do physical abuse, [[except my younger big sister]] we uh… we held her too much and sorta screamed like little fools]… not super surprising considering the family dynamic…)because to her, fear=ouchie??
Please do not think I’m an animal abuser 😅 bc I’m NOT!!! I was younger and I was still learning from my father, which lead to that. My siblings aren’t animal abusers either. My dad… not as much anymore… he’s gotta let THAT out on me, right guys? ‘,:]
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Hades0918
The last part was painfully optimistic… Nah, I get it. I feel like I mistreated my first cat growing up. So many things I wish I had done differently… But I was 5! I didn't really know what I was doing! When I got older and chilled out Star (the cat) was cool with me. Anyways, Yeah, this makes sense don't worry!
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Voltareon2012
At the very least you are definitely not an intentional animal abuser :P
I mean all little kids kinda have no respect for animals like a friend of mine back when we were seven would take his chameleons and have them fight. The one that always won he named King.
He doesn't do that anymore… except occasional bug vs. chameleon fights. The only victorious was a really big praying mantis.
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Oh yeah. King was actually a girl. She got pregnant at some point. That was a whole thing.
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Names I ALMOST gave to my cat Luma:
Shinx, from Pokemon
Scarfy, from Kirby
Tetra, from Wind Waker (Zelda)
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sir_uledgelaughs but not sure if I'm laughing at the inside joke, the fact that I don't know it, or the fact that Hades is being strangled by duct tape
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Morpekofreako
oh cmon it’s not that hard! Just lick it and it’ll come off. It tastes DeLiCiOuS trust me.
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I have the sudden urge to grind super hard to get a pikachu to level 99 in plza and teach it volt tackle and then add it to my team consisting of Pokemon in their level sixties. Who do I get rid of…im keeping my morpeko, and I’m keeping the haunter. Now that leaves me with alpha starmie, Feraligatr, Barbaracle, and talonflame… im thinking Starmie…?
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Morpekofreako
Pretty good. My cousin came over but also kept attacking our animals in our Minecraft world lol
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Morpekofreako
My pikachu, Hikaro is now at lvl 93! She’s doing great!!! I played a LOT of online battles to get all the candies I needed. I went all the way from Rank Z to rank E in one night!! Almost rank D.
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I’ve rediscovered that I love Inteleon. ITS JUST SO PERFECT. Cool, cute, sleek design, all that fun stuff. And the fingers are so satisfying to me. It has five fingers, rather than like two. Chameleons have five fingers but are grouped into two, hence sobble’s amount of fingers. But yeah I love the whole line a lot
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Voltareon2012
HMM…
Cinderace is better.
Though my second pick in Galar would've been Intelelon and picking out of all the water starter it would probably be in the top three. -
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”It’s all his fault… all his fault… his fault… fault…” these words echo in my head. My father said these words, and similar ones many times before. If I have asthma and an attack is clearly triggered from strong emotions and you’re screaming at me… is it MY fault I have an attack? “Ohh, so now you’re gonna have an ASTHMA ATTACK?!!” Yes, dad. I’m going to have many asthma attacks. But who cares about me coughing up BLOOD on the living room floor. Just blame me… yell… gosh. “What you’re doing… it’s demonic!…” sobbing? Throwing up? Hyperventilating? Quick! I’m suffocating in the kitchen because of emotional abuse! You’ve got to come and glare at me! Ugh. Mom thinks I need to just pretend it didn’t happen. Like my trauma doesn’t exist. My sister and I both have trauma. My dad used her as an INSULT. UGH. THAT MAKES ME EVEN ANGRIER. “Cmon, you don’t want to end up like your sister…” YOU are the reason she was depressed! Why should I trust anything YOU say? Why should I listen to you? I don’t want to grow up like you. Finally I have therapy. But YOU want to go back there too! Yeah, now there’s NO way I can feel a TEENSY bit better, because I can’t talk about my problems with you around. Isn’t that just perfect??! And the time I actually get to go back alone, you get angry! “Oh, now she’s gonna think I’m a monster!” Yeah I definitely lied back there. Like WHAT I’m here so it can help me, not to complain and lie to worsen your stupid reputation! And yeah, you sort of are a monster! I can hardly stand him now. If he walks into the room he always swings the door, and it always makes my heart skip a beat. When he sings he sings VERY loud and I get the same feeling as when he screams. And his quieter singing just reminds me. He always uses the Bible against me. “It never says in the bible to disrespect your parents” WELL IT ALSO SURE DOESNT SAY TO ABUSE YOUR CHILDREN. Also he always says that I’m being abusive. That I’m abusing him. Why… my trauma is like a whirlpool… it’s always sucking me in. And then I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. I can’t talk. My breathing gets unsteady. My cousin and my sister are my only safe havens. But not like I can up and leave… once I can legally drive you know i am HIGHTAILING IT OUTTA HERE every day. And that gives me hope. It’s like the light at the end of the tunnel is just a matter of a few years away… but while I’m back here in this wretched trauma-tunnel, I’m just gonna barely hang in there on a thread, until I get pulled up out of this ditch of despair.
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Dragonfly102024🥺😔🥺. Hope this doesn't sound weird, but, I wish I could hug you. Just want you to know I hear you. Hang on tight to that thread of hope and take it one day at a time. Whatever you do, don't give up. Know we are here too., for you.
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Hades0918
Oi. I'd genuinely kidnap you if I could. You deserve out. I'm sorry you go through this... That's just awful. I... I wish I could do more. I'm here for you though. Any time any day
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I wish I could hug u too..
I'm so sorry..
You don't deserve this..
Thats horrible..
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AlolanCassianThe loyal rat... A close friend of mine told me many great things about you. I wish you luck on your quest of freedom and relief. I, too, am here for you
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Dragonfly102024
Big huge group air hug!!! Watch out! You might just feel it in the energy, @Morpekofreako !
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Morpekofreako
thanks… also… I have a sneaking suspicion about @AlolanCassian…. Hmmm. Anyway… I could use a group hug.
dad gave me a lecture after I mentioned that my therapist and I think I have adhd. “Well EVERYBODY has a short attention span nowadays.” 😑 I don’t even have too much of a short attention span (…all the time lol) And I never said I did, so obviously YOU do because you can’t even tell what I’m saying! Also he says that “everybody thinks that they have adhd.” sighs earlier in piano lessons I completely forgot what my substitute teacher said DIRECTLY after he said it. I was so sure I knew… and then I did it again because I was thinking “man I really need to think about getting an adhd test” so I DIDNT HERE TGE NEXT PART LOL. It’s like I knew what he said but my brain decided to forget half the sentence. : “So I think we should be working on this week…—…major…—…minor..—… modes…—… b flat scale…—… that sorta make sense?” me, ignorantly shakes head pretending I’m not struggling to use my goofy lil brain “Cool.” -
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I feel awful for you, I feel you too parents caring more about representation than wellbeing the thought of disassociating once your old enough, your father seems really scary I really wish you didn’t have to deal with that situation if you need to talk more about it I think everyone here would be willing to listen
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Dragonfly102024
Something I learned to do, it may seem silly but has helped me throughout my life ever since highschool and morphed into a bigger steno notebook for work.... My dad has ADD (different but similar), although I was never tested, he says I show the signs of it too. Anyways, I learned to carry or always have with me a notebook, notepad of some sort and a pen and then WRITE everything down. It's amazing how fast our minds move on to the next thing, they jump, ideas, to-dos, and "what was I doing or talking about again?" moments. That's not a dementia thing (I'm not that old), I've been this way my whole life. But it is manageable….. the "forgetfulness" As long as you use one notepad/steno (flip so it's easy to write) and keep it with you or in the same place. A small one for a pocket works too. Low-tech, but helpful and quick. My career required attention to details and remembering specifics or else I could get fined and/or lose my licenses & registrations. I would not have survived that (or college) without a notepad. Even simple things like a shopping list is needed for everyday life for me. Or else I will forget something as my mind jumps to other things. Hmmm maybe that's why I derail threads? Giving you a new air hug for today
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Voltareon2012
OKAY.
I hope this doesn't feel like me intruding on your problems at all or anything, I don't mean to, but this just triggered me. I'm trying not to go totally crazy.
Using the BIBLE. Saying don't disrespect your parents because that's what it says… as a way to say you can't disagree? Or even be angry?! Ever heard of righteous anger?! Jesus flipped tables in the temple when he saw them doing terrible things!
And to respond that you're abusing him is… guh I can't say that. BULLCRAP. To say 'do you want to end up like' somebody, that's… that's such a form of disrespect to the person you're saying they're going to end up like, even if they really did make a mistake, even a giant mistake! That's so disrespectful, so rude, it's… UGH!
An asthma attack or ADHD isn't some EXCUSE to get out of things! It's a condition. If somebody had a missing arm, would you tell them 'lift with both hands'? "That's something entirely different, you can get over ADHD-" OH MY DAYS! THAT'S NONSENSE! DO YOU TELL PEOPLE TO GET OVER THEIR PERSONALITY WHEN IT'S INCONVINIENT?! And calling an asthma attack WHAT?! (Okay, calm down Volts, you're going to start swearing, then you're going to break something…)
OKAY.
Ten seconds…
Okay.
Okay.
Please, know I'm praying for you, whatever comfort you take in that, and that I would be tempted to yell all this at your dad if I could see him. To be honest, maybe I should've just said a few kind words, but this made me mad. Sorry if I sound like I'm intruding on something personal, I just… couldn't stand to hear that. -
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Of course after posting this I remember all the internet safety lectures about never posting something online when you're angry…
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thanks, volts. I’m glad you feel that way actually (and I also get the about to swear thing lol). That made me feel better.
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More pretending to care about me…
More judging me…
More getting angry at me…
I went to a non-sensory mass (church) and it was so peaceful and nice and then mom and I went to Walmart. It was fun. And then we got home. All joy drained. It was like having a piece of art you are proud of get shredded. That’s how it felt. My dad immediately started getting sharp at me. And judging. Ugh. I want it to be over. Once my sister moves from her current house and gets an apartment she and her friend said they’ll let me come over to escape. But for now I’ll have to not get sucked into this whirlpool of my breaking point. I’m already spinning around in it.
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Dragonfly102024
"Hang onto the life preserver I'm tossing you! Just hang on, don't let go..... Close your eyes and envision a place you feel peaceful, content. Hang onto that image too. Breathe, just breathe."
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Voltareon2012
(I'm not going to get mad, I'm not going to get mad, I'm not going to get mad).
You're in a whirlpool.
You're about to drown.
Walk on the water.
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Hello my friend how is your evening looking so I can get some more pictures of your new house in my profile and then I’ll post it on the Facebook
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I think I’ve discovered one of my favorite shinies…
look at her! That blue tongue! Aahhhh! So cute and kooky! Anybody else like a specific shiny? (Also I’m never evolving Zil)
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Ember2026
My favorite shiny of all time has to be... The Bacon Bird, aka Yveltal! Makes me hungry... Anyways, it looks like she ate a blue raspberry popsicle or something, lol
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mom let me borrow her Apple Pencil last night and I finally felt alive! I’ve got a new Pokemon bug I want to post two together due to the long wait..
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Morpekofreako
sadly my mom wants me to find the Apple Pencil BEFORE I BORROW HERS AGAIN 😭 maybe I can convince her to let me… just this once…?
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Morpekofreako
just gotta color the regional dubwool and add Pokédex entries to the regional variants and I’ll be done. Moms using her pencil rn though.
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pretty good! I mean a bit of stress and a bit of sadness but it was ok. I went to my grandmother’s house and my little cousin was there. He LOVES Pokemon! He only really plays tcgp but watches the anime (as all children should lol) and collects irl cards too. Big age difference but we’re still pretty good friends. Used to, we weren’t, as we hardly talked to each other until I really felt bad… I knew how he felt, being the youngest. When everyone is older than you, sometimes it’s hard (of course sometimes that changes depending on the family). No one wants to be your bud, because they’re years older. And then after a while, apparently, I made a good impression?! That’s what people said!! I know! Insane! Well yeah now he’s more polite! (Especially with the adults) my grandmother says that he’s always talking about how nice I am and that he loves hanging out with me. 🧡 so yeah that makes me happy. How was yours??
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Hades0918
That sounds amazing! My day has been good! I'm enjoying the rp thing I started. Had fun interviewing with Clasingla. Made some Pokemon OCs. And I actually think learning the way memory works is fun! Pretty good all in all!
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