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I feel like an awful person I was mean to two members of the forums over stupid mechanics and even though one of them said it was okay I still can’t forgive myself I shouldn’t have been so rude or egotistical to them I should be trying to help making everything funner to everybody not worse I’m seriously an awful person and should be shunned forever

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  • clasingla

    I feel sort of bad for the user appreciation post cause I feel like I could say more and that I should but I don’t know what to say or realize I don’t know as much as I thought I did about them I feel I’m failing as a friend

    26. September
    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      Yeah... I actually get that. I felt like for Osho I had so much I should have said but couldn't because I don't know him that well. So I'm just making it a goal to put more effort into the friendship!

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      I keep feeling this like I want to say more about them yet I don’t seem to know what to say

  • clasingla

    I’ve been playing quite a few good games recently

    16. October
    • UnovanZorua
      UnovanZorua

      What are they?

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      I’ll be looking at their names soon I was at the ren faire all day

    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      Ooh please do tell me more!

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      about the ren fair or games?

    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      both!

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      well for the games the ones that I’ve played that I’ve been really liking are you are not bunny girl, it’s basically a turn based rpg that uses emotions as its main mechanic, the second reality room unspoken truth which is a visual novel which is really really good, then there is drunken rouge and the vampire of goodbyes which is a fun roguelike that has you manage your stats

    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      I didn't expect that from the first one but that sounds cool, I've never been a visual novel fan but the name makes me consider it, and the roguelike sounds incredible! I'll look into them! What about the ren fair?

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      so during the ten fair I got 3 new dice sets, some cool jewelry, got cursed with this sickness called jaundice by a plague doctor and had to go on a quest for a key to cure myself, ate some really good pizza, had some ice cream too, also some licorice and some raspberry soda and some lemonade. I also tried making this Viking yarn thingy but failed miserably, I then saw a show of a person playing a harp and a cool string instrument I forgot the name of, there was also jousting where the knights were making jokes the whole time

    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      That sounds amazing! Is it possible they were playing a Lyre? Anyways, that sounds like so much fun! I hope you had a good time!

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      it wasn’t a lyre it was one I never heard before they described it as the cousin of a cousin of the violin its back was curved in a certain way

    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      Huh. Sounds cool!

    • Lonestar85
      Lonestar85

      Instrument a Lute by chance?

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      Sadly no

  • clasingla

    I feel like an awful person I was mean to two members of the forums over stupid mechanics and even though one of them said it was okay I still can’t forgive myself I shouldn’t have been so rude or egotistical to them I should be trying to help making everything funner to everybody not worse I’m seriously an awful person and should be shunned forever

    17. October
    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      Um... I didn't see this but I don't think it's that deep... I promise you didn't do anything wrong. You were telling them the proper way. Nothing wrong with that. Plus, you usually let a lot of things sljde, so it's not one you're CONSTANTLY correcting people. You're honestly too chill some times. So don't stress. You're still cool and fun to be around. And between you and me you've always been one of my favorite people here. So long story short you've done nothing bad and all is okay

    • UnovanZorua
      UnovanZorua

      I'm not sure about the context as I haven't been reading the battle royale, but I don't think anyone cared. Everybody is mean once in a while. All you can do is acknowledge or learn from it if it was bad and move on.

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      it just felt I was to cocky and to harsh and it turns out I was wrong and I had no good reason to lash out I really hope I didn’t hurt their feelings

    • UnovanZorua
      UnovanZorua

      Everyone makes mistakes. That's fine. All you can do is remember what you did wrong.

    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      I wish I could say more but I'm agreeing with UZ

    • Lonestar85
      Lonestar85

      It's ok. For the record it keeps me on my toes. I'm still a novice at this stuff with no rulebook or handbook to pull from if I need it. Besides Hamilton has survived 4 Death moves, two of which Crit, hence wiped his Stress out anyway along with refills of their HP. It's not just him though... You and Bob have survived Death as well to where I feel it's justified to say: "Why won't you die" in a Royale where everyone is supposed to die save for one 🤣😇 Was kind of hoping Bob would bite it there against the Dugtrio but they didn't because they got lucky on the death save. The odds of me getting a Nat20 on an attack to override a reaction Crit is nothing short of crazy though. I did give him a ton of perks for getting a Crit but they can't outdo the damage. Reason I was hoping to KO him is because he has an advantage over everyone else with that Bow of his. He can just Kite you all unless you go after him and slay him before he can slay you.

  • Snorlax1256

    Hi

    15. October
  • clasingla

    how can one have the audacity to say they love me yet be the reason that i've met my breaking point, have self-harming thoughts, brought my insanity, felt I couldn't be myself, just cause they wanted to have a 'perfect family', denying that I have any problems in the first place.

    13. October
    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      I wish I could answer. I'm sorry you must go through what you do. Get treated as you do. I wish you had better. You definitely deserve better.

    • UnovanZorua
      UnovanZorua

      I agree with what Hades has said. Remember we care about you, OK?

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      I have my elder sister she's experienced similar treatment by them she's had selective mutism for years yet only when she was 16 she got diagnosed and got help she needed, yet my parents for the longest time ignored her struggle rubbing it off as just plain shyness instead of what it really was, when we fall behind they threaten we might be in a mental home like my uncle, they turn on their own words and promises if it benefits them even if they promise to try and be better, saying that we are just going to do something anyway then trying to lock it behind what they want you to do

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      I know you guys care about me this is probably one of the places I feel the most comfortable with, with people who actually care about me instead of my parents who only does so by lip and not by heart

    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      Yeah, I do want to confirm that I care about you. You're definitely one of my favorite people here. I'm sorry for your sister… I hope that doesn't happen to you. And that's crazy to threaten your child like that… Gods, I hope things get better for you!

    • UnovanZorua
      UnovanZorua

      That's awful... I wish you luck.

    • Morpekofreako
      Morpekofreako

      I’m sorry. And again, we do care about you.

  • Lonestar85

    Today's Royale go alright in your book? Not sure when It'll pick back up. I guess it'll be at the pace everyone can respond given we're heading into another week.

    12. October
    • clasingla
      clasingla

      ye

    • Lonestar85
      Lonestar85

      Crazy day on Royale. Have no idea how id grade myself lol. Completely new to this and Hades was giving me the third degree on keeping track on things and I'm like I can't keep track of everything. Some things are your charge, not mine. 🤣😇🙅

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      yeah gming is definitely hard but is definetly fun too. how has it been running this have you enjoyed gming? I’d say you’d been doing pretty good with running it adding exciting elements and keeping it fun for the players

    • Lonestar85
      Lonestar85

      It's been ok I guess. I'll see if Osho returns tomorrow to hopefully fight back. I really wish he had picked a different Pokémon or I had Homebrewed a better ability for Wimp Out but how can I when it's literally auto-surrender. I have a couple plans concerning it's ability and then a plan C that I may ultimately use.

    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      I agree with what Cal said. And I'm genuinely sorry! I thought the GM keeps track of that part 😅 I don't even know how Catsuki is doing...

    • Lonestar85
      Lonestar85

      I forget how you're doing on the Campaign. I know im 4 Hope, Full HP and no stress after my downtime moves(including new Armor). +1 Evasion to gain the Evasion back(no Gambeson) and +1 Trait(Instinct and Strength). Simple choices. If we get a Pokémon move on Tier-up, I'll take Icy Wind for more AoE fire and guaranteed slow. Otherwise that'll have to wait until level 3 or 4. Most of the group hasn't even made downtime or level-up decisions.

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    13. October
    • Lonestar85
      Lonestar85

      Unite related? Smh

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      eh not really just everyone has been changing their profile pics to umbreon I haven’t played unite in like a year and a half

    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      I didn't do it for Unite. I wanted in on the Umbreon take over lol

    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      I didn't do it for Unite either (forgot the last word the first time)

    • Dragonfly102024
      Dragonfly102024

      Joined the dark side, have you?

    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      Cool deep voice Yes yes

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    11. October
    • clasingla
      clasingla

      I was able to find a Time Machine

    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      I would go back to Char but this is my Halloween pic. I don't know, Chikorita will always be the only thing that truly matches you to me.

    • RitattakDiva
      RitattakDiva

      Just realised:

      ChikoRITA !

      And can you lend me the time machine pls ?

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      I’ll lend it to you it can only travel between 2 years back and 2 years forward tho

    • RitattakDiva
      RitattakDiva

      That's good already !

      But if I travel two years back, can I use it to go two years back again and again until it's like 2000 years ?

    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      … Wait that's smart…

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      nah tried that already doesn’t work

    • RitattakDiva
      RitattakDiva

      Awww… what a shame....

    • PikaCarter2025
      PikaCarter2025

      Join us!

  • clasingla

    I lowkey want to change my profile pic back to chikorita

    11. October
  • UnovanZorua

    Hello! How are you?

    8. October
    • clasingla
      clasingla

      alright have to right college essays since i procrastinate til the last minute and have to do the interviews today

    • UnovanZorua
      UnovanZorua

      Good luck.

    • RitattakDiva
      RitattakDiva

      Good luck !!!!!

  • Hades0918

    This demon has made its way to TCG:

    DLR 83
    8. October
    • clasingla
      clasingla

      now everyone knows not to mess with Kecleon

  • clasingla

    today will erode away, the pains will slowly melt my mind and I just want to fall, the world is being shoved upon my shoulders with no room to breathe

    7. October
    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      I wish I could take that burden from you. Or at least part of it. I hope someone can lift it from you soon

  • UnovanZorua

    How are you doing?

    6. October
    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      I second this question

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      I’m surviving have to write all my college essays today I’m very demotivated as the requirements to try to get into the music program are overwhelming and feel unrelated to the field I want to go into I feel i should probably get tested for clinical depression but things are looking up elsewhere I’m starting an in person daggerheart group so that is a little good

    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      Hey at least there's a bright side! I hope you nail those essays! And the Daggerheart better work out!

    • UnovanZorua
      UnovanZorua

      That's great about the daggerheart thing! I wish you luck with college. That sounds tough.

  • clasingla

    A vase made of intricate eloquence

    A spectacle to all one to cure the lament

    Appraised as a beauty yet one would never expect

    The slow eroding to the vases detriment

    yet no one seem to noticed causing the detriment to quicken

    Well who could notice someone’s internals being stricken

    each day people pass and go with their attitude so ferryweather

    No thought to the craft behind this vase only seeing for their pleasure

    One night the vase finally shattered

    No one came to the crime for they didn’t really care

    Now your just a shattered vase ugly and full of despair

    To live a life only being seen from the outside

    And when it’s gone you become as zeros divide

    Now your just shards of glass the epitome of trash

    To be scooped up thrown away no legacy to last

    4. October
    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      Wow. Wow this was just… Perfect. Exactly how society views people. But I'm concerned. I really want to make sure things are okay. I can't force you to open up. But just know I'm here for you if you ever choose to. Amazing poem and have a great day/night.

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      just that I have no friends at school and when I get home I have no one their to me and my siblings rarely talk and my parents fail to understand me trying to push me to be perfect even though that’s the very thing that’s killing me I’ve also been struggling a lot mentally thinking the world will just keep on moving if I stopped existing that if I am gone tommorow no one would shed a tear because who could like a failure like me reality murders my dreams one by one with each blow leaving me with nothing all hope gone that niave enthusiasm dead because I’ll never be good enough because I lack skill and when I try my best it’s still worse than everyone else and I’m scared for my future if I can’t do anything now how can I even hope of having a good future my old friend group faded out since some of them went to college so I have no one to hang out with the people in my church group are the popular kids so fake with every thing they do leaving me just an outcast an outsider and with no one to talk to and I tried to be friendly and start a blood on the clocktower group and I got around 20 people to say they would join to only be betrayed with only a couple few to come each time which meant I had to cancel it multiple times eventually having to end it cause no one showed up

    • UnovanZorua
      UnovanZorua

      I can't help much, but I want you to know I care about you.

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      thanks i probably needed to hear that

    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      Um... okay. I can't be there irl, but I'm definitely here for you on the internet. Because I do care about you. And you're worried about being perfect. I know it probably doesn't mean much from me, but I don't think you need to be perfect. Just be you. Like, if the real you is anything like the guy I know then you're a really cool dude. You have a natural skill at writing and your stories are incredible. You have such amazing ideas and make awesome characters. I wish I could do something about botc... I personally want to join. I Wonder why they would say yes if they didn't mean it though... I'm sorry that didn't work out. You know, being the outcast isn't a bad thing. You're staying true to yourself, not changing to please others. That's a really good thing that I think will get you far in life. You live by your standards and won't lower yourself for others. People will see and respect that,even if it's not right now. If only you could stop trying to live by higher standards... I don't know if anything I said was meaningful but I'm just trying to show I'm here and making effort to help and comfort you. If there's absolutely anything else I'm all ears

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      thanks I’ll let you know if anything more comes up

    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      Sounds good. I hope you have a good day/night!

  • clasingla

    I wish it was socially accept to break down in public

    4. October
    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      iN MY OPINION IT SHOULD BE. i DON'T (sorry cap locks) get why society looks down on expressing your emotions. Let me cry! Let you cry! Everyone deserves to cry when they need it! Life is tough. We are all dealing with something. So don't judge someone else for letting out their stress. Holding it in only makes things harder

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      yea i just really felt this a few days back i kind of was having a rough day and i just wanted to cry but i just couldn’t

    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      I get that… I hope things get better and maybe you can finally let out some tears. It feels amazing when that pressure is finally gone and you can breath again

  • Lonestar85
    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      That's gotta sting…

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      probably not most likely got lost somewhere if I’d guess

  • clasingla

    I really need to start writing again welp I first have to finish college essays

    2. October
    • Voltareon2012
      Voltareon2012

      I have an essay to do for my Bible class…
      But I'm
      insert happy rainbow procrasinating!

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      Make since I procrastinate way to often

  • Voltareon2012

    just existing some more

    1. October
    • clasingla
      clasingla

      existing in this existence while thinking about existing

  • Morpekofreako

    Welcome to the forums! Hope you enjoy this place!

    1. October
    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      It's an amazing Community and I hope to see you around!

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      Aw thanks you make me feel like I’ve been on here for years

    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      That was genuinely the best reply possoble

    • Morpekofreako
      Morpekofreako

      agreed

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    30. September
  • clasingla

    I’m planning on going to a blood on the clocktower event in San Francisco that’s happening march 5-7

    30. September
    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      Ooh, have fun! Tell me how it goes!

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    30. September
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    29. September
    • clasingla
      clasingla

      well I was going to see if the amount of agrees was bigger than days lived then I realized that I’ve lived 1000’s of more days then amount of agrees I have

  • clasingla

    I forgor to take my medicine last night

    27. September
    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      Good or bad? Like does it give you negative side effects or is it positive for you?

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      helps me focus right now I am the essence of chaos

  • clasingla

    two puppet masters always beckoning

    One of logic one of empathy

    An everlasting war inside my brain

    To which side creates reason and the other disdain

    As my paper body gets strung along

    Hitting everything like a gong

    But what even I if just a doll

    Forever lost in minds fall

    27. September
    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      Hmm... You're making some pretty depressing poetry lately. The messages are becoming more clear to me. This was amazing! Everything alright, though?

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      ye all alright I just like to write about more darker depressing themes especially when they connect to me in some form or another

    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      That makes sense. Well, you're doing a great job! Can't wait to see more!

  • clasingla

    I have multiple of some improv piano recordings (not actual songs yet) would you guys want to listen to some of them why I’m writing my more polished stuff

    26. September
    • UnovanZorua
      UnovanZorua

      I'd like to!

    • Hades0918
      Hades0918

      I want to hear please!

    • clasingla
      clasingla

      now I just have to find away to be able to post videos on here

  • clasingla

    I’ll be probably not be on often this week on vacation

    24. September
  • Hades0918

    I changed

    Figured I'd let you know in case you're Flareon still because I was Vapor

    If you're just wanting to be the fire dog right now then just ignore this

    23. September
    • clasingla
      clasingla

      I can’t get words right… so sleep deprived

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    23. September