I feel like we need a check in

sir_uledge · October 1

Yeah.. I fully support us laying down our thoughts (to a reasonable extent the 3,000 guests don't need to know everything)

Also I just realized @Hades0918, you're 12 posts away from 28,000 posts!!

Either way no more off-topic discussions, I'll go first.

It turns out I'm one of the younger people here since I'm in high school (won't say exact age that's too much) - but I don't really love how high school's going for me..

My private school switched to curriculums last year and ever since the teachers have been scrambling to figure out what to do and now me and my class are very behind..

I'm doing what I can but there isn't much I can do..

Also I've been having a few family issues of my own.

I'm not gonna go very deep into it but basically my siblings just do not behave at all and it gets a bit frustrating since I'm the oldest in a big family so I just kinda never get a break..

I tried talking to my parents about it and they just immediately rooted for my siblings instead and how I'm supposed to be the "mature one" even though they keep acting like karens in public.

Either way I've had WAY worse situations in the past, so even though I don't love where I'm at right now, I've been through worse so I'm doin' all right🙂

PikaCarter2025 · October 1

explodes

Hades0918 · October 1

https://community.pokemon.com/en-us/discussion/comment/196576#Comment_196576

I like that that process!

Hades0918 · October 1

https://community.pokemon.com/en-us/discussion/comment/196565#Comment_196565

I absolutely get that

Very understandable

I know I can't be there irl but I'm still a friend

You can talk to me any time you need

Doesn't have to even be anything important

You just want to chat?

I'm here

I know it's better in person but I'll do the best I can over words

Hades0918 · October 1

https://community.pokemon.com/en-us/discussion/comment/196587#Comment_196587

Okay, so you probably are younger than me but I'm supposed to be in High School

I skipped high school and do college

But I think there's a lot of other high school peeps here too!

ANYWAYS

I'm sorry you have to struggle with that

You're still a kid (or teen, whatever, I think you get what I'm saying)

You shouldn't have that responsibility put on to you

And it doesn't matter if you're supposed to be the "mature" one

If they're acting like brats they need dealt with

And while I do like that semi-optimistic ending you need to keep in mind that just because this isn't the worst point of your life doesn't make it any less bad

If there's anything else you need to say I'm still listening

sir_uledge · October 1

https://community.pokemon.com/en-us/discussion/comment/196616#Comment_196616

How did u skip high school I wanna do that too😭

Well I am starting dual enrollment soon so I guess that's something.

But either way having to be the role model everywhere I go is kinda annoying..

It's like no matter what I try I can't be good enough..

And the situation with my siblings doesn't help either..

Plus my parents literally attempted to force me to add my siblings in a gc with me and my friends.

But I won that battle tho don't worry.

It's like you're stuck in this mask of pretending to be the "good enough" one for your friends and family.

Thing is because my friends see that I'm the oldest (idk how to say this without it being awkward sorry) but they kinda look up to me in a way and I don't wanna fail them.

So I always help them out so my friends have someone to go to in times of trouble.

Thing is where do I go..

I try not to think about it too much because I don't like making the world revolve around me but it's hard..

Hades0918 · October 1

https://community.pokemon.com/en-us/discussion/comment/196638#Comment_196638

My friend

You're not making the world revolve around you

I'm asking

I want to know

Because I actually understand what you're saying

In my own way

At 5 I was at a 5th grade level

In 7th grade I was doing high school

At high school I started college

It's a lot of stress

I've been told for as long as I can remember that I "have so much potential"

That I have a brought future

I'll go great things

I'll go far in life

And I'm so mature for my age

I get along with elderly people better than I do kids my own age

Because I'm educated and polite

Grown adults will literally admire me after one interaction

It's exhausting

I hate it

I no longer even care about my education

But next year in Spring I'll be getting my Associates Degree

And my mom wants me to complete college fully

And use to I wanted to

But I don't anymore

So now I'm stuck in a life I don't want

I feel trapped

And I just want a break

I don't know how it feels to be forced to be the mature one

But I know what it's like

As the most mature I've always felt it was my responsibility to look out for everyone

Just comes with the territory, I guess

And mom always tells me not to helicopter parent my sister

But I can't help it

It's been this way as long as I remember

And I hate talking about myself

Hate it

I will intentionally avoid mentioning my skills in conversation, doing everything I can to keep things about others

Because I don't want to seem self centered

But that makes things harder

I mean, let's say you're at the bottom of a ditch, right

You can't get out

You need help

You hear someone nearby

You're gonna shout out for them to assist you, right?

Give you a helping hand and pull you up

Mental situations are no different

You can't escape on your own

And if you don't cry for help you'll be stuck there forever

I've learned this from a recent experience

There is no way I would have gotten through it if I didn't talk to others

And it's hard to do

You don't want to be a burden

But it's necessary

So while yes our situation are different, I think I can understand

And I didn't say all that to brag or make things about me

I still want to hear about you

Because I'm trying to relate

Sorry if I said too much but maybe now you can feel more comfortable talking about your problems

Because you deserve to be heard

It's not about others

I want to hear you out

Let you be you

Don't worry about acting mature and presenting yourself a certain way

Just be yourself and let me reduce your stress

I have no problem sitting here for hours just to let you vent

And helping others with their problems makes me happy, so you don't need to worry about upsetting me or something

BSDuck · October 1

I’m doin’ ok, bit of writer’s block, and I’m struggling a bit with something I won’t share, but the weather’s surprisingly nice and things are pretty chill :)