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Hey... You can take a break... But please don't isolate yourself. It's seriously not healthy. I will always listen, no matter how dark or "pointless". I care and I'm here. Please. You do need you time but don't let yourself be captured by dangerous thoughts. Kay? Have a good rest. And I'm giving you some good things others write about their mental health. Finding people that share similar emotions can be helpful. Um... I... Okay. Bye. I'm here. 🧡❤️🧡

NNOOOOOOO!!! The writing I was gonna give you isn't there anymore! Sigh Listen, Fortelling has a lot of depressed people. It's also a great way to anonymously express yourself. Very supportive community that has helped me through so much of my depression. Just... Give some of them a read, yeah?

I don't have much to say, but I hope it gets better for you. And everything Hades said is true, but I want to focus on the isolation thing. It can, indeed, make things worse and accidentally give you negative associations with what you're avoiding or make you feel like it'd make it worse, which isn't good in the long-term. However, that doesn't mean you need to check every post and notification and wall. Instead, I just recommend using the forums to a limited degree (e.g. commenting very rarely or not at all, avoiding threads that are long or got too many new comments, not reading anything that might tire you too much, only clicking posts that interest you, etc.), which can give you a sense of progress (letting you see just HOW much energy you have and what your limits are, and if the progress is negative, don't worry. That's normal sometimes) and it doesn't leave you all alone or make you associate the place with worsening those negative emotions.

UZ is right. But I came here with a reason. Listen... Cal… Ugh I'm about to share a lot. Possibly over share. Delete if you want. Sorry if I overstep any internet line. But I care about you. A lot. I... I can't let you go without telling you that. I genuinely consider you a good friend. I know I know almost nothing about you irl but you seriously mean a lot to me. You were one of the first people here that I felt comfortable with. You seriously helped me find my place and confidence. And you are so cool and creative and talented. I admire you. You are seriously so incredible. And I'm sorry. I... I feel like I failed you. I should have done more. Been there more. In my time of need you were there for me. I don't mention it much here but trust me I talk about it to everyone else I know. Seriously, you listening to me despite not having to meant so much to me. But yet in your time of need I didn't make enough effort to keep in touch with you. I was afraid of over stepping some line. But I can't let you go without me saying everything on my mind. I always get so excited when I see a notification from you. I enjoy when you're around. You have awesome ideas and when it's something like rp you are the best of the best. And your story creations... You have some of the greatest, most original ideas out there. No one could ever replace you and barely anyone can complete. I don't want to let you isolate yourself. I know where the thoughts go when you're alone. I can't say such a thing here in a kid's place but I don't want you leaving more than just the Forums. You are cared about. You mean something. I may not have things as bad as you do. Yours is way worse. But I can to an extent relate with you. And even the things I haven't experienced I can understand and listen to. I'm not forcing you to stick around or talk to me. But you are genuinely one of my favorite people to be around and I don't want you hurting yourself. I'm not saying you have to stay active or force yourself to do something you don't want to. I really like UZ's idea but I can't force you into that either. I just... I want to remind you that you're not alone. And that you have someone there for you. That cares about you. Again, I know that I don't actually know you. I've never even seen your face. But you mean a lot to me and I don't want you to feel unwanted. So... Yeah. I just poured my heart out. Sorry if I crossed any boundaries. But I couldn't let you leave without telling you all that. So... Bye

She posted that herself or are we taking your word for it? 😇

Also you laugh, you lose.

She said it herself. I don't say peak much. AND I'LL ACCEPT THAT CHALLENGE ACCEPTED TOMORROW!!!

Hmmm I've noticed one like that before..... Are they not supposed to? Or is it so we can't bug them, 🤭, not that we do.... or do we?

There’s two.

gasp

You're very welcome, D! You deserve all the compliments!

Guess what?!?! I just checked... And we got 4th place!!!!!!

(TBH, I thought they forgot about me.... Then I figured they were doing the smaller stars or younger people but realized that wasn't correct.)

4th place in the tournament, right? And this is for everyone! No age or rank needed! I'm waiting on UZ's...

Correct.

But I'm so happy you got one! I've been waiting for you to get one since the very beginning! I can't believe I almost forgot to mention your Unite skills... How humiliating! Anyways, I... Had something I was going to say... Dang me and my tired brain. Anyways, I'm so glad I met you. Happy to have you here!

Full team 5v5. No rank requirements so all skill levels. Yeah, there are much better teams out there... Yet I felt we did awesome!

Hey no problem with that! Had a good time, right? That's all that matters! And 4th place is impressive! And it doesn't matter what rank you got. Seriously, you're the strongest AND coolest Unite player I've ever seen! ✨️😎✨️

☺️☺️☺️ Thank you, @Hades0918 ! I'm glad to have met you too. (And Yes! I had a good time on Sunday. We all tried to be positive and everything just felt better.)

I still can't believe it! Just watch, next tourney, WE'RE GONNA GET THIRD!... hopefully!

That's a definite YES YES, @Ember2026 ! We just need to keep practicing and vibing as a team. Maybe try out diff strategies or have them as backup plans in case the other teams adapt to our current strategies... 🤫.... Excellent job, @Ember2026 !

@Hades0918 .... Did UZ play in the tournament too? Does @TheJeffers play Unite also?

I don't think UZ plays and I'm not sure for Jeffers

Ah ok, in the tournament, we played against someone with a name very similar to @TheJeffers.... But the location would probably be wrong since you sign up to battle on certain servers. For us, it was the NorthAmerican servers. However you can sign up and play through any server you prefer, someone on our team is not from North America. You just need to be aware there may be lag... Hmmm....

I haven't played in ages, and my username is very different from here

At least you played once upon a time... That means you rock! 😎

I can give you company if you ever need

You know... I've found that hearing others' depression and talking to those in a similar place to me can be quite helpful... I doesn't fix everything but it relieves some stress. Would you like me to give you links to a few good rants? If I can figure out how to anyways

Stares INTENSELY back

I feel ya friend

Ohhhh ok Ed Sheeran because I was concerned for a second

Yeah... I actually get that. I felt like for Osho I had so much I should have said but couldn't because I don't know him that well. So I'm just making it a goal to put more effort into the friendship!

I keep feeling this like I want to say more about them yet I don’t seem to know what to say

Hey! Just... using a random post here to check on you. How are things going? How do you feel? Anything to at least look forward to?

nothing to look forward too except an event at swig kind of feeling depressed with absolutely no motivation to do anything and just indifferent to everything

Wow... I kinda feel ya. I'm sure mine isn't as bad as what you're going through, though. Anything you wanna talk about?

not really just lacking motivation to do anything

Okay. Well if that changes let me know. I'm always down to listen.

IP configuration error for over 11 hrs. And since internet was down, there isn't a way to contact them. Just had to wait. It kicked me out of MC last night, couldn't play with my usuals at night in Unite, and again this morning .... nada. Welp, at least it's back on ...... for now 🙂.

666.
If you do at least make two at once.
Or else you know what will be said…

Ugh… The forbidden numbers…

Good luck in whatever you do and wherever you go in life! Enjoy the journey 🙂

Thank you. Your support means a lot to me

I wish I could answer. I'm sorry you must go through what you do. Get treated as you do. I wish you had better. You definitely deserve better.

I agree with what Hades has said. Remember we care about you, OK?

I have my elder sister she's experienced similar treatment by them she's had selective mutism for years yet only when she was 16 she got diagnosed and got help she needed, yet my parents for the longest time ignored her struggle rubbing it off as just plain shyness instead of what it really was, when we fall behind they threaten we might be in a mental home like my uncle, they turn on their own words and promises if it benefits them even if they promise to try and be better, saying that we are just going to do something anyway then trying to lock it behind what they want you to do

I know you guys care about me this is probably one of the places I feel the most comfortable with, with people who actually care about me instead of my parents who only does so by lip and not by heart

Yeah, I do want to confirm that I care about you. You're definitely one of my favorite people here. I'm sorry for your sister… I hope that doesn't happen to you. And that's crazy to threaten your child like that… Gods, I hope things get better for you!

That's awful... I wish you luck.

I’m sorry. And again, we do care about you.

That's… a lot.
A family isn't perfect if people in it aren't happy.
It's such a strange way to try to show love. Like it's gone through too many filters to come out right.
I can't tell you I can relate to it, and I can't say I know what exactly to do…
…all I can really say is I'm sorry that's how your life's gone, and that even if you don't see them, somebody cares about you.
You'll be alright.